my_story
Sunday, September 30, 2007
tumatandang paurong
current song: wala
current mood: wala
sa kabila ng tambak tambak kong gagawin ngayon para sa linggong ito, bigla na lang pumasok sa isip ko na tumatanda akong paurong. ewan ko lang kung bakit. after 19 years, hehe. kala mo naman antanda na eh. bagets pa naman ako. pero feeling ko lang habang tumatagal, mas lalo akong nawawalan ng sense of direction at purpose. hindi ko masabi kung masaya talaga ako ngayon sa mga naaaccomplish ko, o sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko. merong part sakin na nagsasabi ko na may sobrang laking kulang sa buhay ko, kaya kahit anong maachieve ko o magawa, parang palaging may kulang.
i think it's time para bigyan ko naman ng sense tong walang kwenta kong buhay. yan ang drama haha.
SLE na ng group namin bukas. major activity na final exam na din namin sa subject na group dynamics. last kame kaya pressure. after 2 weeks of planning, ewan ko kung magiging successful ito, pero sana naman. im hoping for the best. medyo crucial kase ung part na binigay sken. eh magaling pa naman akong pumalpak sa mga bagay bagay. dito ko natutunan na 2 heads are better than one. but 14 contradicting heads, ewan ko lang haha.
puro na lang pessimism at sarcasm ang buhay ko. nakakasawa na maging masama.
o dba ang gulo ng post ko?
july wrote this piece of crap on Sunday, September 30, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
Saturday, September 22, 2007
para sa mga kalalakihan
current song: wala
current mood: wala
nakuha ko ito sa multiply ni enrico cobangbang.
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1.) Fine : This is the word women use to
end an argument when they are right and
you need to shut up.
2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting
dressed, this means a half an hour. Five
minutes is only five minutes if you have
just been given five more minutes to
watch the game before helping around the
house.
3.) Nothing : This is the calm before
the storm. This means something, and you
should be on your toes. Arguments that
begin with nothing usually end in fine.
4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not
permission. Don't Do It!
5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a
word,it is a non-verbal statement often
misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means
she thinks you are an idiot and wonders
why she is wasting her time standing
here and arguing with you about nothing.
(Refer back to #3 for the meaning of
nothing.)
6.) That's Okay : This is one of the
most dangerous statements a woman can
make to a man. That's okay means she
wants to think long and hard before
deciding how and when you will pay for
your mistake.
7.) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do
not question, or Faint. Just say you're
welcome.
8.) Whatever : Is a women's way of
saying F@!K YOU!
9.) Don't worry about it, I got it:
Another dangerous statement, meaning
this is something that a woman has told
a man to do several times, but is now
doing it herself. This will later result
in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the
woman's response refer to #3.
july wrote this piece of crap on Saturday, September 22, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
My 2nd Apology Letter
current song: wala
current mood: hmm
this is actually a revision of my first apology letter. medyo tanga kasi ung pagkakaenglish ko dun sa ibang parts, at kelangan daw kasing mas subtle at mas apologetic. hmm. tinanggap din niya sa wakas. nabawasan na ko ng problema sa buhay. at least wala (atang?) record. well, we all do make mistakes. medyo natuto naman ako kahit pano. medyo lang? ewan. ako to e, pinanganak talaga akong outspoken. hehe. though minsan talaga, nagccross na ko sa border. kaya next time, medyo dahan dahan na lang sa pagbblog. at may nagbabasa din pala kasi neto kahit pano. akalain mo un, instant celebrity na tong blog ko. wow.
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Prof. Antonino Tobias IV
Sociology Professor
University of Santo Tomas
Sir:
Last August 6, 2006, I published a web log post entitled "Grrr" in my online journal, "I blog, therefore I am" [http://mobilemaniac.blogspot.com]. The content of the said post is profane in nature, so to say, as it had damaged the reputation of Prof. Tobias as an instructor of the university to a considerable extent. The choice of words, the diction, and the emotion which had been illustrated in the said post are foul and very unbecoming of a student, that is why I sincerely believe that Prof. Tobias deserves an apology from the author of the web log.
In this regard, as the author of the said online journal who claims all the responsibility for whatever was written there, I humble myself as I willfully succumb to write this public apology letter addressed to Mr. Antonino Tobias IV to make amends for whatever damage or defamation I may have caused him. I admit my shortcoming in this particular circumstance and I would like to confess that I have been unconsciously irresponsible for publishing a public web log post containing all those foul language and subjective opinion without considering the harm it may bring to the professor mentioned.
However, as the author of the said online journal, I would like to clear out that I have nothing personal against the said professor. It just so happened that will all the bulk of work during that time, I had been very emotional to may written all those spur of the moment assertions which are very subjective in nature, without any objective basis. I wrote that post with conviction driven by the exact emotion I was feeling that time. My online journal is an extension of myself- an outlet of my wildest emotions; a listener to my endless rants and my controversial opinions; but most importantly, a part of myself which I have perpetually written for almost three years now. But it was never in my intention in any of my single posts to defame or to destroy the reputation of Mr. Tobias. It just so happened that the thoughts and opinions I posted there offended him in some way, and for this reason, I would like to extend my public apology not only to him, but to the general public who had read the said post.
I believe that each and every one of us is entitled to our own opinions. However, this right comes with a greater responsibility- that we should all be held accountable for whatever we write, whether public or not. I would be more than willing to delete the mentioned post, if that will serve him the justice he deserves so as to address this matter with proper legality. And rest assured that any untoward circumstance such as this will not happen again.
Truly yours,
Julius C. Tan (sgd.)
Behavioral Science Junior
University of Santo Tomas
july wrote this piece of crap on Saturday, September 22, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
Monday, September 17, 2007
My First Public Apology Letter
current song: wala
current mood: depressed
Mr. Antonino Tobias IV
Sociology Professor
University of Santo Tomas
Sir:
Last August 6, 2006, I published a web log post entitled "Grrr" in my online journal, "I Blog, therefore I am"1. Attached herewith in this letter is the exact weblog post published at the said date.
Mr. Antonino Tobias IV demands a public apology from the author of the said online journal because of the content of the post "Grrr" which he claims has damaged or affected his reputation and credibility as an instructor of this university to some extent. In this regard, as the author of the said online journal, I humble myself as I write this public apology letter addressed to Mr. Antonino Tobias IV to make amends for whatever damage or defamation I may have caused him, in his belief. I admit my shortcoming in this particular circumstance and I would like to confess that I have been unconsciously irresponsible for publishing a public web log post without considering the harm it may bring to the professor mentioned.
However, as the author of the said online journal, I would like to clear out that I have nothing personal against the said professor. With all due respect, everything that was written in the said post are just spur of the moment assertions and are merely opinions which are purely subjective in nature. I wrote that post with conviction driven by the exact emotion I was feeling that time. My online journal is an extension of myself- an outlet of my wildest emotions; a listener to my endless rants and my controversial opinions; but most importantly, a part of myself which I perpetually write for almost three years now. But it was never in my intention in any of my single posts to defame or to destroy the reputation of Mr. Tobias. It just so happened that the thoughts and opinions I posted there offended him in some way, and for this reason, I would like to extend my public apology not only to him, but to the general public who had read the said post.
I believe that each and every one of us is entitled to our own opinions. However, this right comes with a greater responsibility- that we should all be held accountable for whatever we write, whether public or not. I would be more than willing to delete the mentioned post, if that will serve him the justice he deserves so as to end this matter with proper legality. And rest assured that any untoward circumstance such as this will not happen again.
Truly yours,
Julius C. Tan (sgd.)
Behavioral Science Junior
University of Santo Tomas
1. [http://mobilemaniac.blogspot.com]
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grrr
current song: your love- ust singers
current mood: medyo badtrip
currently reading: Bayaning Third World review
Mr. Antonino Tobias IV, my RC professor, is requiring us to submit a 5-page movie comparison of Bayaning Third World and Jose Rizal. Fuck naman, wala nga sya nung nanood kami nitong mga movies na to eh. And I don't see the logic behind setting up a certain minimum number of pages for our paper. Dati nga 10-pages pa yung nirerequire nya eh, kundi lang nagmakaawa yung iba kung classmates. Pano kung kaya ko namang gumawa ng concise yet detailed na movie criticism? (kunwari 2 pages) Hindi ba pwedeng ganun na lang. Ang hirap naman kasi sa kanya, wala na nga siyang tinuturong maganda, andami pa nyang pinapagawa samin. hindi nya siguro alam yung process approach to writing lolx
yan, magsusulat muna ako ulit hehe. meron pa kong 10 minutes para tapusin tong paper na to. nasa page 3 na ko, goodluck :)
july wrote this piece of crap on Sunday, August 06, 2006
july wrote this piece of crap on Monday, September 17, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
Saturday, September 15, 2007
suicidal
current song: wala
current mood: wala
nakakastress tong linggo na to. buong linggo ata akong depressed at moody pati mainitin ang ulo. naguguilty na ko minsan, pero di ko naman maiwasan. andaming gumugulo sa utak ko, minsan tuloy naiisip ko na may sakit na ko sa utak. pumapasok na din sa utak ko ang pagsusuicide. kung hindi lang duwag ang mga gumagawa nun, siguro matagal ko nang ginawa un haha. tanga ka tlaga hulyo. nawawalan na kasi ako ng drive para gwin ung best ko sa lahat ng bagay. palagi nalang akong tinatamad at inaantok.
kahapon pala, may nagjoke sken. hanggang ngayon nabobother pdin ako sa joke nya. nasaktan ako kse nilait niya ung isa sa mga bagay na mahalaga sakin. ung ambition ko pagdating sa music. kung sino pa minsan ung tinuturi mong kaibigan, un pa ung nakakasakit sayo.
sana magkaron ulit ng 1 week vacation. i need a break. seryoso. ayoko muna magisip ng problema.
july wrote this piece of crap on Saturday, September 15, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
Sunday, September 09, 2007
hahaha
current song: wala
current mood: depressed
kakagaling ko lang sa sta. mesa. bday kasi ni ted. ang crib nya ay sa tapat lamang ng UERM hospital kung saan ako ipinanganak. ang kewl diba. masaya naman ang bday ni ted kase andun ang mga kklase ko at kaibigan. kainan at inuman. shring ng mga love stories at family problems. pero ang ironic.
kung ano ung kinasaya ng happenings dun, sermon ang inabot ko paguwi. hindi ako kasi nagpaalam sa ermats ko. well, hindi talaga ako nagpaalam kasi hindi kami ok mula nung sunday pa. grabe. sermon. may ksama pang tanong na "anu bang nangyyre sayo?"
ano ba talagang nangyayari sken, o anu ba talagang nangyayare sa kanila. sa tingin ko ksi oras na that i deserve some love and appreciation. at hndi ko un nararamdaman dito sa bahay na to. simple lang naman eh. anu bang pipiliin ko, mabulok dito sa putanginang bahay na to o pumnta sa kung saan masaya ako ksama ang mga kaibigan ko. kahit pa sabihn nilang "kaibigan lang yan, hindi ka sigurado kung totoo ang pgmamahal na binibigay nyan sayo", wala akong pake. mas pipiliin kong maging masaya kasama ng mga kaibigan ko kaysa makasama ang pamilya ko. i hate my family. haha. hello drama, ikaw ba yan.
at least sa skul, kahit pano, nararamdaman kong magaling ako. na kahit konti, nabibilib sakin ang mga kklase ko. napapatawa ako ng mga kaibigan ko kahit sa mga maliliit na bagay. narerealize ko na may talent ako. natuto ako mula sa everyday experiences naming mgkktropa. at kahit kelan, hindi ko un nararanasan dito sa bahay.
hindi lang nila alam, na pinaghihirapan kong pagbutihin ung pagaaral ko para maging masaya naman sila. na hindi na ko humihingi ng extra cash para sa mga projects at iba pang pangangailangan ko kasi ayokong pahirapan pa sila. hindi nila nakikita un. ang nakikita lang nila palagi, kunsumisyon ako sa buhay nila. pasakit. sana hindi na lang nila ako ginawa kung ganyan lang din ang ipaparamdam nila sakin haha
tangina, i really feel bad. ansakit talaga sa loob kapag hindi ka naaapreciate sa kabila ng lahat ng efforts mo at ginagawa para lang maging isang "mabuting anak"
ok tama na. mtutulog na ko. 230am na.
july wrote this piece of crap on Sunday, September 09, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
Monday, September 03, 2007
happy day
current song: wala
current mood: happy, pero hindi msyado
kuya kase, wag kang SOPUT. bawal ka tuloy OMIHI dun. tsk. Di ka kasi nagpapa-TOLI haha. weh.
napicturan ko ito kahapon (sunday). galing sm bacoor, sasakay sna ako ng jeep papuntang zapote-laspinas. magpapagupit kasi ako. pero bago ako makasakay, nakita ko ito. kahit na tragic ang sunday ko, natawa pdin ako dito.
ang monday ay kadalasang hindi masaya. traffic day kasi. tumayo ako sa bus papuntang skul dahil mahirap na sumakay. tumayo din ako sa LRT dahil madaming tao. so medyo literally nakatayo ako buong biyahe papuntang skul. nakakabad3p lang na kung sino pa ung mga hindi kagandahan at squatter, yun pa yung may mga karapatang magtaray sa tayuan sa bus. nakakabad3p lang.
kala ko sisirain lang ng byahe ang buong araw ko, pero hindi pla. nagsimula ang lahat sa group dynamics. medyo maganda ang nakuha kong grado sa prelim exams kaya happy happy nanaman. 2nd. nagbaon ang mga girls at boys ng 3bes2. tropa plus some frends. ansaya. nagbaon ako ng tapa at gravy. ung iba may dalang kanin, softdrinks, tilapia wd kamatis, beefsteak, cordon bleu (spelling?), corned beef, atbp. grabe. fiesta nanaman. ako ung nagluto ng tapa kaya talagang ginawa kong special ang marinade. nung tinikman ng mga ktropa ko, pti mga girls, sabi ni dennis helena at den2 na masarap daw. syempre flattered ako. ansrap talaga ng feeling ng may nakakaappreciate sayo o sa ginawa mo. (anliit na bagay pero natutuwa ako haha). well ganun talaga. may mga bagay na sa skul ko lang nararamdaman, dito kasi sa bahay, kunsumisyon lang ang tingin sakin ng lahat. :(
3 hrs ang break namin kaya sugod sa lib dahil sobrang init. pero nakigamit lang kami ng kuryente dun at wifi. mga buong time na un naglaro lang ako sa pc, at sila din ay naglaro sa pc ko hehe. masaya din naman.
tapos statistics time na. 6-9pm. ewan ko ba pero nababangag talaga ako sa subject na to. literal na bangag kse hindi na ko nakikinig tas puro pagttrip lang ginagawa ko. nagsugal kame ni majo knina. random numbers sa calcu, palapitan ng guess sa lalabas na number haha. nanalo ako ng 6 pesos. tas pinagtripan din namin ang makitid na noo ni MJ, saka ung prof namin na nakakatawa talaga, pero magaling. tas paguwi, dahil sa kabangagan sa lesson, nakaimbento pa kami ng mam ellar rap sa jeep. jusko. comedy talaga, mam ellar in da haus cmon haha. balak ko pa nga ituloy eh. goodluck.
ayun lang. masaya tong araw na to. kahit pano nakakalimutan ko ung mga problema ko dito sa impyernong bahay namin haha.
july wrote this piece of crap on Monday, September 03, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
Saturday, September 01, 2007
finally after 1 yr halos
current song: wala
current mood: inaantok na
finally, after 1 yr halos, nakainom na ulet kame sa moses. ang place to be. kahapon un. friday. at kahit na may 50 page reading kaming assignment para sa filipino recitation kinabukasan (ngayon un), talagang ginamit namin ang natatanging oras na common smen ng mga katropa ko sa 3BES1 para makainom ule. ampanget talaga ng hindi sabay ang sked. hindi na kami nakakainom ng sama sama. present dun si don dennis ted dicky jerico at ako. wow.
narealize lang namen na 1 yr na pla kame halos na hindi nakakainom dun. un kasi ang official inuman spot namen for 2 yrs, pero dahil sa bali-balitang niraid daw un ng tulfo brothers (haha), hindi na kame nakainom dun haha. saka wala na din kasing time. bute na lang kahapon ay absent si eros na prof namin from 6-9pm kaya nakainom kame. yeah.
namiss ko ung paginom namin dun date. dati kasi after class, basta friday, o kung kelan may chance, umiinom kami dun. para icelebrate ang mga katropang sinagot (yihee si dickdick binata na haha), mga napasama sa dl, mga binasted o binad3p, o kahit walang dahilan, basta may chance. dun ata talaga nabuo ang samahan namen. at nakakamiss talaga uminom dun. nakakamiss ding umuwi ng friday nng nakainom at medyo tinamaan ng alak. sana maulit pa uli un hehe. drama men. yeah.
ang hirap talaga nng tumatanda, mas nagiging mahirap at kumplikado ang buhay. josko.
ang swerte pla ng sabado ko. una kasi, hindi ako nakapagbasa nung reading assignment dahil antok na ko kagabe dahil sa beer, hehe. tas kanina, late na nga si eros sa aming 10am class, tapos wala pang recitation. jusko, bute naligtas ako don. tas nung 2nd subject na, art app, kinancel ung quiz. at pinanood lang kame ng dokyu film tungkol sa egypt na maganda at exciting. pwera biro, very interesting. tas pinanood din kami ng 1/3. silent movie un. actually napanood ko na un dahil un ang ginamit kong film sa film critique sa subject din na art app. astig un kahit medyo boring. 1.5 hrs na walang nagsasalita or minimal dialogue lang talaga. tas sobrang disturbing. na-ban nga daw un balita ko eh. try nyo panoorin. ang astig.
kanina galing kami sa bday ng ermats ni dickdick. hehe. masaya din. napakadaming handa. ansasarap lahat. busog talaga men. next bday ule a haha
july wrote this piece of crap on Saturday, September 01, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
weirduhan time muna
current song: wala
current mood: pagod, kakauwi lang
weirduhan time muna. ilang mga pics na nahablot ng aking handy dandy celphone.
si kuya naman wrong gramming haha. at take note. sa loob ng sidecar ko yan nakuha. ayos eh. may aircon at ilaw na pla sa sidecar.
nagreresearch kame ng groupmate ko sa filipinoyy ng source materials para sa aming research dati. ang topic namin nun ay kung paano nakakaapekto ang kulay sa paguugali ng tao, at dito kami napadpad courtesy of the ust online library catalog (ung computerized card catalog ba). nakakatakot. hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bat naiimbento at pinagaaralan pa ung mga ganyang klseng salita.
july wrote this piece of crap on Saturday, September 01, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
music player shuffle
current song: ayan o
current mood: pagod, kakauwi lang
RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
Note: Ginamit ko ang Winamp Player sa PC ko para mas madaming kanta.
NO CHEATING!
1. How are you feeling today?
We've Only Just Begun- Karen Carpenter- What a way to start dba?
2.Will you get far in life?
2113- Coheed and Cambria- haha. Emo.
3. How do your friends see you?
This Ain't A Scene- Fall Out Boy- Jusko, may patutunguhan ba tong survey na to?
4.Will you get married?
Familiar- Anonymous- Jusko lalo. Tunog pang James Bond na movie ung kanta, di ko nga alam to eh. Pano na?
5. What is your best friend's theme song?
Take A Look Around- Limp Bizkit. Wala akong besprend eh. Don? Haha. Trip naman ata nya to.
6. What is the story of your life?
If You're Not The One- Daniel Beddingfield- Hahaha
7. What was high school like?
Bells Will Be Ringing- Bon Jovi- hahaha. Sakto lang. Lage akong late nung highschool eh, lagi akong nasa office, at laging nasa bingit ng suspension haha
8.How can you get ahead in life?
Closing Time- 3rd Eye Blind- Ansaklap ah, pero ayos lang.
9. What is the best thing about your friends?
Love Will Find A Way- Christina Aguilera- Ampf
10. What is today going to be like?
Complete- Stephen Speaks- haha. ayos lang. masaya naman eh
11.What is in store for the weekend?
Same Ground Acoustic- Kitchie Nadal- same?
12. What song describes you?
Promise- Jagged Edge- and I don't know the song again.
13.To describe your grandparents?
Sukiyaki- PM- hahaha. Hindi kami Japayuki pls
14. How is your life going?
If- Rivermaya- hahaha. Konti na lang sakto na sakin tong kantang to.
15. What song will they play at your funeral?
Say My Name- Xzibit, ft. Eminem and Nate Dogg- haha. sige sabihin nyo lang pangalan ko hanggang magsawa kayo.
16. How does the world see you?
Love Takes Time- Mariah Carey- walang relevance
17. Will you have a happy life?
Rush- MYMP- ha?
18. What do your friends really think of you?
Angel- Sarah McLachlan- hahaha. demonyo ako mga kaibigan
19.Do people secretly lust after you?
Tensionado- Soapdish- hahaha. natetense sila sken siguro
20. How can I make myself happy?
Hell Raiser- Tupac- Josko.
21. What should you do with your life?
Finally Found- Honeyz
22. Will you ever have children?
Aubrey- Bread- And Aubrey was her name.. haha
23. How do you picture yourself 5 years from now?
Ocean Deep- Carol Banawa- malalim?
24. What is best to describe your special someone?
Sleeps with Butterflies- Tori Amos- wow.
25. What is in store for you in this world?
I'll Never Get Over You Getting Over Me- MYMP
26. What would your life be 10 years from now?
Live To Tell- Ewan- ?
27. Will you be successful?
Bulaklak- Viva Hot Babes- hell yeah hahahaha
28. How was your childhood?
Tara Tena- Kyla and Kaya with V3- haha. tungkol naman sa kabataan eh
29. What song best describes your mood right now?
The Prayer- Josh Groban and Charlott Church- mukhang kelangan ko na magdasal ah
30. How was it answering this survey?
Where Are You- Natalie- this is one of the most boring surveys i have ever answered. amen
july wrote this piece of crap on Saturday, September 01, 2007
i'm the mobilemaniac
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